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Lord, I Am at the End of Me

This is one of the shortest yet most heartfelt prayers I've ever uttered.  It reminds me of that moment when Peter was walking on the water and began to sink and uttered the prayer “Lord, save me!” in Matthew 14:30 (NKJV): “But when he saw that the wind was boisterous, He Was afraid; and beginning to sink he cried out saying, Lord, save me!”

I feel that I am at the end of me, I have asked myself different variations of the same question:

I know I’m not alone in this; many of us have found ourselves asking the same questions at different points in our lives. Some, like myself, are still wrestling with those very questions.

As I sat in conversation with the Lord, I asked Him, "What else do I need to do practically to see change?" It feels like I’ve been fighting the same battle for what seems like forever, yet there’s no visible change. The things I’ve prayed for haven’t manifested. The promises of God that I hold onto seem almost out of reach. "What am I doing wrong, Holy Spirit?”

In that moment, I was gently reminded of Matthew 16:25 (NKJV): “For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it.” I felt the Lord on that Scripture. I felt the Lord saying that if I truly desire to save my life, I must first be willing to lose it. The Holy Spirit was reminding me that sometimes, I just need to let go. I need to cast my cares upon the Lord, to be still, and trust that He is God.

Often, we think that our efforts, our striving, and our endless attempts to fix things will bring the results we’re looking for. But in reality, sometimes God calls us to stop fighting and rest in His word. Just like a farmer who prepares the soil, sows the seed, and waters it must also wait for the harvest, we too must learn to rest after doing all that we can. It’s in this rest that our faith is truly tested and refined.

Ephesians 6:13-14 (NKJV) says, “Therefore take up the whole armour of God that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. Stand therefore...” This scripture was another gentle nudge from the Lord. It reminded me that sometimes, after we’ve done everything we know to do, the only thing left is to stand firm—trusting that God is working even when we can’t see it. 

Faith is not a one-size-fits-all journey. God may instruct one person to press forward while telling another to rest. But I believe that many of us are hearing a similar message in this season: it’s time to rest in His word and fully trust in it. The end of me will always be the beginning of God. Both of us can’t be in control at the same time; one has to yield, and it’s time that I step aside and let God be God.

I’ve realized that surrender is not just about giving up but about handing over control to the One who knows the end from the beginning, the Author and the Finisher. It’s about acknowledging that God’s ways are higher than mine, that His timing is perfect, and that His plans are for my good, even when they don’t align with my expectations.

As I come to the end of myself, I come to the beginning of God. And it’s in this place of surrender that His strength is made perfect in my weakness.  So today, with a heart filled with repentance, I surrender. I lay down my need to control, to understand, and to be the one who fixes everything. I trust that God is more than capable. And in this place of surrender, I find rest. I find peace.

Lord, I am at the end of me, and I’m finally letting You be God in every area of my life.