Depend On God

Peace, a space of contentment. The space of knowing that everything will work itself out and relinquishing total control to God

Striving to develop a sense of peace in my life has been tough. Growing up, I always wanted things to be “right”, I never wanted to be wrong or mess things up. As I have grown older, the need to control all the situations in my life enveloped me into fear and anxiety about making the “right” choices in the future. Last year, the world was in a state of peril due to Covid-19 and the civil unrest of this country. Due to that, many Americans and other countries around the world were anxiety-ridden, scared, fearful, and emotional. I felt all of these emotions and sat within them for days, weeks, and sometimes months at a time. I allowed myself to become fearful and forgot to lay down my fear at my Fathers' feet.

In the fall of 2020, I moved to Washington DC, overjoyed and excited for new and exciting ventures ahead but I still felt the fear looming by. To “let go and let God” I started to pray. When I say pray, I mean that. I would fall to my knees each morning and night and say, “I submit this to you, God.” I was adamant about giving the fear and anxiety over to God because I was sick of going back and forth in my mind, trying to find the answer to a situation that was out of my control. As I continued this practice, day after day, it started to work. I began to feel the peace of God in my heart, mind, soul, and spirit. I began to feel less stressed and less burden-filled.

If you are battling with fear, anxiety, or overthinking and are searching for peace, try what I did. I depend on God but, I also had a licensed therapist and worked on mindfulness practices. Sometimes we need several outlets to clear our minds and lay it all down. Lean into the Holy Spirit and see which direction He guides you. I pray you to find peace and comfort within the storm we are currently facing.